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Intersections and Digressions of Math and Life

Mom — Sat, 04 Feb 2012 03:11:15 +0000

Thanksgiving is easy. With so much to be thankful for, our feelings of gratitude are readily at hand. Adding to that, Colin had scans only two days before the holiday as the hospital emptied out while families in treatment left for visits home and others avoided check-ups during the holiday week. An impending check-up always [...]

True North

Mom — Sun, 20 Feb 2011 05:24:41 +0000

Colin is in remission, and it now seems easier to utter the words aloud. His scan from January was still “stable,” with Dr. Gajjar now asserting that the sliver of “whatever” that cradles Colin’s brain stem is scar tissue. He further stressed that surgery would not help and would only cause more damage (duh!). All [...]

Put Me in, Coach

Mom — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 15:10:10 +0000

As Colin’s trajectory moves unevenly but steadily upward, we have also been taking him out into the world to finally do what he could not a year ago. At the same time, we are still at the phase where we turn back the mental clock by a year, reminding ourselves of what Colin’s life was [...]

Survivor: Target House

Mom — Sun, 23 May 2010 13:10:43 +0000

There is no immunity challenge, and Jeff Probst doesn’t sit us around a campfire to discuss who is next to go, but living here is beginning to feel like a warped version of the Survivor reality show. So many families that were planning to leave after us are by now long gone.

The Simkins, who have [...]

Happy Mother’s Day

Mom — Mon, 10 May 2010 05:51:57 +0000

Mother’s Day is billed as an opportunity for fathers and children to express their gratitude for the other 364 days a year that mothers devote to their families. However, I see it as yet another day to appreciate the two beautiful children that I have had the privilege of taking care of and getting to [...]

I’m In!

Mom — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 17:40:38 +0000

The news of the impending loss of Colin’s port was sobering, but we put it behind us as we launched into the holiday weekend.

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Even at St. Jude, things slow down over three-day weekends, and during this period we only had one appointment, a lab check on Sunday to see how his magnesium was doing.

On [...]

Marathon, Not a Sprint

Mom — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 06:25:03 +0000

We and others have often commented that cancer treatment is a marathon, not a sprint. Today, the literal marathon supporting St. Jude took place, including a half-marathon and the 5K that I participated in. The connection between treatment and the marathon is more than casual, something that we observed and felt first hand through the course [...]

Chemo Vacation

Mom — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 14:47:22 +0000

Colin is taking a little chemo vacation, though it may be more theoretical than real. Of course, we don’t want him to actually take a break because the whole point of being here is for him to control the cancer with drugs. However, the endocarditis has forced us to put the scheduled Day 8 and [...]

Home Again

Mom — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 05:45:51 +0000

Tomorrow, we plan on bringing Colin home again. After much planning and deliberation, St. Jude found another home health care agency to provide nighttime nursing. We met with three of the staff, including one of the nurses who would be taking care of Colin.

Following chemo, he was especially weak and tired, but every day he [...]

Beginning, Middle, End

Mom — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 05:03:08 +0000

MIDDLE We are in the middle. The diagnosis and first steps to treat Colin seem far behind us, but the future remains foggy. From this perspective, we still have a strong connection to both sides of this process though, with any luck, we will never reach the terminus.

We marvel with great wonder at how we arrived [...]